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Saturday, 26 September 2009

  • ups and downs

                 well i dont know where to begin for describing the past week it has had great lows, yet in 24hrs later after that low i also had one of the most happy moments people ever experience in their lives.

                on friday september 18 2009..... my 17 month old cousin emma thomas died in a fire in cherryville, missouri. she was a cefree little girl that was always so happy and a joy to be around like babies are, she was walking and beging to talk, had 12 teeth and she loved to show them any chance she got. she loved to be in pictures and play with her two older brothers and her parents. it was a ver sad homecoming from virginia but i am strong and held it togeter. i had only met her once and that was this past 4th of july and i babysat her most of the couple days around then and got very attatched to her. i miss her so much but i kno she is in a better place. it was hard the first couple of hours but i am strong and pulled it together now. still have my moments when i think of her and kno i will never see her alive again but i make it thru the moment and move on knowing she is finally truely safe and happy.

                on saturday september 19 2009 i had a glorios day and will never forget a certain moment that occured that night but first i should begin with events leading up to that. it was a normla morning helping mum with chores and such. it went by pretty slow considering i was counting down the hours until i saw my gf cuz i had a major plan for the day involving a question....a  big question. so about 2pm she got here with our friends bernie and amanda, they picked me up and we went down to raymond to amanda's house for the night. me and kari layed down in the back of the ford ranger cuz we didnt feel like using the 4banger seats, we wanted to cuddle for the hour long ride. we talked, jammed out to music, joked and fooled aorund a lil bit, all in all it was a good ride. once we got to amanda's house me an kari went upstairs to a spare bedroom so we could have some fun and talk and wrestle. after over an hour of that we came back down stairs and hung out with bernie as amanda took a shower and then hung out with her too. at one point bernie kari and i go to get pizza and a couple movies for the night. we come back and eat pizza while playing apples to apples(i won both games we played go me). after that we went outside and had a small fire. after getting the fire going me and kari went out and bought some mallows, herseys chocolate, and chocolate gram craqckers to make smores. kari and i came back and by the fire i proposed to her and she said yes. after that we all had a few smores the put the fire out. we decided it was time to watch a movie. i had taken my meds so i wasfalling asleep watching the move so kari and i went up to our bedroom for a little fooling around before bed. we came back down and finished the movie without bernie and amanda cuz they had gone off to fool around themselves. after the movie we went back up and went to bed. woke up the next morning to kari trying to wake me up and she was laughing. we talked for a bit and fooled around some then went down stairs to wake bernie and amanda. it was a wonderful night and one that i wont soon forget. after hanging out for a bit they brought me home and kari went back to college.

               this weekend kari is staying at my house all weekend long and next weekend she is moving in to my house. it will be wonderful. right now she is gone ot her parents to get some things but she'll be back soon.


Wednesday, 23 September 2009

  • a paper i did in english 10 back in 2006 i like it

                                                        1 Page Descriptive Essay


        It’s an early hot July morning, not a cloud in the sky. Children running around a large oak tree. The tree is full of large elephant sized branches. Knot holes in different places where small animals have made their homes. A large bald eagle is perched like a watch dog on one of the upper most branches only a few feet away from its nest containing featherless hatchlings. The young birds are chirping loudly calling to their mother, wanting food. Back down at the ground a slight breeze has kicked up and is gently kissing the faces of the children. The children have dispersed like wild squirrels chasing each other. Some are running erratically chasing butterflies as they flutter in the breeze. The grass is cover in a slight dew making it almost as slippery as a sheet of ice in winter. The scent of fresh cut crass is mixed with the scents of blueberry and apple pies. The scent drifts along the breeze like a log floats down stream, coming from a house off along  the horizon. From this distance it looks as small as an ant. A column of smoke slowly drifts skyward causing the perfect baby blue color to appear as if it has an ugly scar. The children are yelling and screaming to one another with glee, happily running in their new found freedom. Off in the distance a voice can faintly be heard calling a name of someone. A bird quickly flies out of one of the trees, darting to another in a sudden flash only to be seen for a brief second as if it were a flash of lightning. A squirrel rushes down a branch into a knot whole disappearing into the darkness, black as a midnight sky. As suddenly as it all began the children disperse in all directions as a loud bell tolls off in the distance signaling lunch. The field and the tree are left disserted and everything goes as silent as space. The only sight is a few small animals running in the grass. The smell of pie still lingers in the air and the breeze begins to subside as if it were never there.


Thursday, 10 September 2009

  • fun i virginia

    so for the past little over a week (since sept 1st) i have been visiting friends that are like family to me in lynchburg, virginia. i have bee working at their country store ad having a lot of fun. they are an amazing family and mean a lot to me. i will be heading home next friday but will greatly miss this vacation. it was my first time on a plane ad i enjoyed the ride, it was a little nerveracking at some points but i really enjoyed it and loved lookig out the window at the tiny land below.
    in other news, i plan on proposig to my amazing gf kari oce i get back and get the chance to visit her at college. it should be a happy time. i ko this is rushing it a bit ad i am being a bit reckless and stupid but i feel i should, i love her very  much and she is my world. i wat to spend the rest of my life with her. of course i havt told ayone about this yet but people can find out if they read this and i dont need to tell them so its all good in my mid, plus we wont be getting married for a couple years maybe she wants to fiish college first and i wanna go to college still o it all will happen in time.
    well that is all i feel like putting for ow so i hope you ejoyed readin and have a wonderful day

Thursday, 16 July 2009

  • a story i wrote about my english teacher

    Mr. Decker the Brain Stealing Monster
    by Ryan Hammond


    On a typical Friday afternoon I arrived in Mr. Decker’s room and took my
    seat while waiting for class to begin. Looking around the room I see how
    messy it is, papers on the floor, chairs moved around, his desk covered in
    everything imaginable, overloading trash can, board a mess, pens and pencils
    on the floor and oh so much more. He also has the chairs in messed up rows
    left that way from his previous classes. The students begin to file in
    disorderly and talking loudly. I look over at Mr. Decker, a slightly balding
    man wearing a white dress shirt, odd 1980’s tie, and tan dress pants, and
    half heartedly say “ yay another Friday afternoon”, he just laughs and
    begins looking for something on his desk. He shakes his head in
    disappointment as to not finding what he was looking for. Then he stands and
    walks to his lectern placed to ward the front and center of the room in
    front of the white board.
    He begins his daily monotonous speech of how the day will be split into its
    usual thirds, him meeting with the poetry people, then the silent writing
    time, followed lastly by him meeting with the short story people. I give a
    big yawn and begin to space out. In my own little day dream world nothing
    seems to have changed form the world I just left. That is all soon to
    change. I begin looking around the room to find something that has changed
    but to no avail. The other students are all watching Mr. Decker each with a
    different expression on their faces.
    Suddenly far of in the distance I hear the voice of Mr. Decker yelling
    “Ryan, Ryan …Ryan, Ryan pay attention!” I look towards where he should be
    and am shocked to see not my teacher but a hideous monster (different than
    his normal appearance) standing where my teacher should be. I look around
    the room in shock to see if the other students have noticed the change in
    our teacher but only see that the other students are just staring at him
    with blank looks, like zombies, on their faces.
    Suddenly the hideous, bald, three eyed monster which is about ten feet tall
    begins walking towards me. Thump, Thump, Thump, getting closer and closer
    with each Thumping step. Thump. It begins to speak in a low demonic sounding
    voice
    “Ryan, are you going to join the others? Your brain will be put to good
    use.”
    “What do you mean my brain will be put to good use?!, you hideous beast!” I
    yell.
    The hideous monster continues creeping closer and closer with his Thumping
    steps. Slime begins to ooze from his mouth as yhe hungrily stares at me,
    still babbling about how nice my brain would be in his collection. When the
    creature reaches about two feet away from me I begin to smell a vile pungent
    odor emitting from it. Suddenly, as go to get up from my seat and run I trip
    and fall to the floor. Thump, Thump, Thump, Thump is all I hear as the
    creature continues creeping closer thumping with every step. Lying on my
    back, shaking in terror as I watch the beast Thump closer, paralyzed with
    fear. The beast keeps on creeping towards me with each Thumping step and
    the ooze is forming a slimy trail at his feet. Somehow I convince my body
    to move and I scurry backwards still in my back. Only going a few feet I
    suddenly slam in to one of the cabinets in the back of the classroom. A mask
    falls from atop the cabinet landing in my lap, I scream in utter terror! The
    beast in unfazed by my scream and continues Thumping on towards me, creeping
    ever so slowly the odor getting stronger and more drool oozing from his
    mouth in thicker globs as they slide down his body amassing on the floor
    forming a trail as a snail would have only larger and nastier. I look around
    and see a few books piled near where I am so I grab a few of them. Looking
    at the cover of one I see that is the great Shakespearean classic of Hamlet.
    I say
    “Well, I’m sorry Bill but Hamlet must be cast aside as to prevent my life
    from coming to an end here today.”
    I throw the book at the beast and continue grabbing more classics such a
    The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn. Moby Dick, Peter Pan, The Jungle Book,
    Te Crucible, and even the complete Poems of my favorite poet Edgar Allen
    Poe. Nothing even slows him down; they just bounce off of him. I look around
    in a last ditch effort to find someway out or a new object to throw at this
    beast. I spot the BRAIN CRUSHER (a massive dictionary weighing about fifteen
    million pounds) and reach for it, struggling to pull it towards me. I don’t
    know ho I did it but somehow I accomplished sliding it towards me. I think
    oh no, there is no way I can throw this at him it’s way too heavy, gr but I
    must try! It must have been the sheer terror or the adrenalin but some how
    I succeed and threw the dictionary at the beast. To my surprise it only
    glances off his scales and slams onto the floor opening to a page with the
    word “DEATH” on it. I stare in shock as he continues Thumping toward me now
    only inches away. My panic reaches a new hysterical high point. The monster
    begins laughing manically as it is about to reach my shaking body. Then he
    is there standing in front of my body as I lie there in panic, paralyzed
    with fear as he reaches down a scaly arm with stubby fingers ending in
    large sharp needle like claws instead of finger nails. A glob of slime drips
    from his mouth and lands on me sliding down my face as he reaches me and is
    hovering above me. I start to cough as I inhale the odor of my death. The
    slime begins to burn on my skin. I begin yelling, kicking, punching and
    hitting in anyway I can think of to try and get the beast to leave me alone
    and just go away but to no avail. As the beast grabs me with one arm,
    picking me up by the front of my shirt, I scream in my terror without
    anything I can do. The claws ripping through my shirt scraping against my
    torso tearing the skin. The monster then lifts his other hand very slowly,
    as he watches the terror in my eyes. He grins and I see two rows of sharp
    pointy, razor like, teeth waiting to devour me.
    “Your brain is mine now foolish human!” it utters to me
    he then slams me over the head with his other hand (if that’s what you can
    call it).
    “I’m going to die now, here in school of all places, and even at the hands
    of my favorite teacher.” I mutter under my breath as I black out.
    Suddenly I awake to see that the monster is gone and standing by my side is
    my normal, yet still vile teacher, Mr. Decker. I look around and when I
    notice him I yell
    “You wont get my brain you mutant, monster, freak thing!”
    and jump over a desk and run to the other side of the room. Laughter fills
    the air as students watch me in my panicked state. I look around confused. I
    run around to several of my peers and see if they are ok. After a moment I
    look around to the rest of them confused and say in a shaky voice
    “Y...You …a….a...All…all.hav...Have y...Your…b…b...Brains? (Shakily pointing
    at Mr. Decker) H…H…He…di…di….didn’t t…t…..take th……th……them……fr…fr…from
    y…y…you?”
    the class lets out another huge burst of laughter. Mr. Decker walks up to me
    and I cower in a corner away from him yelling for him to stay away and not
    come any closer. He just smiles and says
    “Ryan, you have been day dreaming again, now go sit down and get back to
    work. Oh, and by the way stop this nonsense about me taking your brain.”
    I slowly go back to my seat watching him carefully to make sure he isn’t
    going to get me and take my brain. After a few minutes of sitting a t my
    seat quietly I ask Mr. Decker
    “Are you sure it was all only a daydream. I mean it all felt so real.”
    With an awkward gleam in his eye he wipes a bit of drool from his chin and
    looks at me saying
    “Yes Ryan, yes. Now get back to work.”
    I decide to believe him since it is a somewhat weird proposition of him
    wanting to steal teenagers brains, plus those things only happen in b rated
    horror movies or stories written by kids who don’t know how to write a good
    story. I go back to doing my work and continue writing a story about my
    teacher so that I can read it in front of the class.
    At the end of the day the final announcements come on and Mr. Decker calls
    over to me saying
    “Ryan, I would like you to stay after school for a few minutes please, I
    need to get something from you…., ah I mean I need to give something to
    you.”
    Drool drips from his chin as he looks away from me. I look around to see if
    anyone else noticed but they are all waiting to leave, listening intently
    with zombie like stares to the announcements. The thought crosses my mind
    that the other students never behave like this, they are always rowdy and
    pushing towards the door to be the first to leave.
    “Why would Mr. Decker need me after class?” I think out loud.
    One of the other students just tells me in a monotonous voice
    “Shut up master wants us to be quiet so he can listen to the announcements.”
    All expression drains from my face as I am shocked to hear a student call
    Mr. Decker called master.
    “Oh my, it must not have been a dream!”
    I try to rush out of the room as the bell rings but the others have blocked
    my only way out. I think
    “Crap I’m trapped”
    Mr. Decker walks up to me grabbing my arm as if to prevent me from running
    off and asks
    “Are you feeling okay today Ryan?”
    I respond while trying to figure out a way to escape by saying
    “Ah….ah… ya….ya…I’m just fine. I ah... may I leave now?”
    H looks at me with an awkward look in his eyes and says
    “No, just one more thing.”
    He turns around releasing my arm as he walks to his desk licking his lips. I
    think yes, this is my time to escape. As I begin to try and run for the door
    he yells
    “Don’t even think about going any where just yet!”
    He reaches in to his desk and begins to pull something out saying
    “Ah yes this is what I want.”
    The thought crosses my mind
    “Oh no, he’s getting a knife to carve my brain out with! I have to get out
    of here.”
    Glancing back to him I am relieved to see that it is only one of the stories
    that I have written for him. I am relieved yet still nervous as he
    approaches me saying
    “I really liked your story and was wondering if I could put it in the
    Nutetron (our school paper)?”
    I respond in a shaky voice by saying
    “Yes, if you want to you can. May I go now?”
    “Yes that was all”
    I heave a big sigh of relief and run out of the room to catch my bus and go
    home, relieved that it was all only a dream.
  • bored and waiting for kari

    A lot has happened these past few days, I got a project to work on, started project,got told i cant do the project, disappointment about  not being able to do project, setting up appointments, getting paid late, finished a book and will be starting another one, things with dad, things with my uncle, the dogs, kari, trip to Virginia, organizing and refilling my coping skills box, adding new games onto my computer and playing them. The past few days have had their ups and their downs, it seems the downs have been greater than the ups but that is ok, i can deal with it, i hope. People say you always have to look on the bright side, see the cup as half full, and so many more cliche sayings that I know i should be listening to but it is very hard to sometimes, thank God for Kari because i dont know if I would be able ot make it without her. So i continue to take the bad with the good and fight on in this life hoping for a day where i wont have to fight anymore.

    The project that i mentioned earlier that was something i was looking forward to doing and now am not aloud to do, well it is a simple project actually. The project was for me to rebuild a chevy 305 crate engine that is sitting in a 1986 chevy camaro iroc. The engine needs a little work to be finished and then the car would be running with zero miles on the enguine. I was really excited for this project because it is one i have wanted to do for the past several years but wasnt aloud to and i finaly had gotten the ok to do the project. Well i started the project, i searched our basement dfor all the necessary parts and pieces to the engine and began by making sure i had everything i needed  or would need. I set up my radio so i could have some music to listen to as i worked, it normally helps me work faster and concentrate better, it was a gorgeous sunny day with a slight breeze, ideal working conditions, and i was ready to work so i began with checking to see if everything already on the motor was tightned down and in the right places and nothing extra was in there. That took me a couple hours because i decided to clean everything as i went beecause the car has been sitting for 4 years with no one touching it so it was dirty. I had all the parts layed out infront of the car organized so that the parts i would put on first would be closest to the car and next to parts that went next to it. after all this prep and cleaning one would think it only took me a day to fix the car and now it is running, well sadly that is not the case. after putting several hours into the car and getting to the point of it would only take me another 6 hours maybe to finish the motor since i am not very skilled but i know enough to get by. Yet the monkey threw the rench into my motor and my projecrt came to a hault. My  brother (sadly the owner of this car) decided that hye was gonna pay some one wiht some fancy degree to do this and that he didnt want me touching the car anymore and got all mad because i had already started the project. This lead to a heated arguement on the phone and didn't help my already high stress levels. So now i am not aloud to touch the car and i had to pick up all the parts and put them back in the basement, needless to say i was quiet peeved.

    In a bad mood but wanting to accomplish something for the good i made some phone calls and set up a dentist appointment which i have been suposed to do since i have insurance now and havn't seen a dentist since i was 6, and i set up an eye doctor appointment since i have never been to and optomotrist and a check up couldnt hurt.

    I finished rereading the harry potter series today, it took me two weeks but it was well worth it. I am excited to go see the new movie this weekend, maybe tomorrow. I am however dissapointed that they split the seventh book into two movie instead of one but i guess if they are going to i have to deal with it and there is nothing i can do about it... oh well.I plan on starting to read a book called "The Way of Shadows" by Brent Weeks. It is a story about assasins that a friend of mione suggested i read so i will start that tomorrow sometime.

    Things with my father are stragely going well. We have never gotten along and in recent times the fighting had gotten worse and i was in the hospital again partially because of him. We normally fight like cats and dogs do but lately i think he has had a change of heart and maybe is seeing that i have been trying to do things for him and he may be gaining some respect for me, the one thing i have always strived for of him. We have been talking and getting along so i am glad and liking this change of ways in the house. It helps with my stress levels and lowers them because of the less fighting.

    On the opposite side of things with my dad, things wiht my uncle(who lives here) have gotten worse. HE keeps yelling at me for things when i am doing nothing wrong or did nothing wrong. That is not helping my stress levels but my dad talked ot him and scolded him for yelling at me and well the yelling subsided for a day burt he is back at it again.

    Kari...what more do i need to say than everytime i think of her i can't help but smile and be happy.  I talk to her every nioght online and well i really enjoy our conversations, we talk about everything and she helps me and i help her when we need it. We vent to eachother and their is a trust that it wont be spread what is said in our conversations. I think i may be in  love but that is for me to decide.I am actually talking to her as i write this.... I dont get to see her as often as i would like and soon to be even less wiht her going to college in the fall but we can make it through this hard time and still be together and happy.

    I am pretty excited about this next item on my list of things to talk about tonight. I planned a trip to go to Virginia from September first through September 18th. I am very stocked to be going, i have wanted this trip since the day they left 5 years ago and now i finaly have the money to go. I am going down to visit friends that used ot live close to me and they are like family to me, 2 members of the family have gotten married recently, so i get to meet the sposes and hang out. The family owns their own country store and i have offered ot ehlp work there wiht them while i am down there. I also have a plan to go golfing because well what else is there to do in Virginia?

    Well I have a few other things i need to do before bed so that is all i am going to put for tonight but i will put more soon

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